Binary Option

Read about Binary Option in MSN news few weeks back, and interested to find out how is the investment goes. So I registered and trying out with practice account. 1st time doing direct trading like this. Not that easy to earn money actually. Thought this can be my chance to get rich and retire earlier. Haha...

I am still using the given money in the Practice Account and still lost all. Practice maybe can make perfect (hopefully). Hopefully can slowly gain back what I have lost. Treat it like a game or lesson. No serious money at the moment. Not until I am good in it at least.

Retrieved Old Blog

Yay! Accidentally logged in to old gmail and able to access my old blog. So I combined those memorable posts to old one. I shall update the new one here from now on. Been resting for a very long time.

Confession of a Chou Chou Owner

Read a funny article and it is exactly how i feel about mine.

http://sgag.sg/posts/confessions-of-a-chou-chou-bantal-busuk-owner

Mine is a baby pillow, very tiny size like exactly what a few months baby hold. I have the same size of pillow since baby. My mum made it exactly the same size, with exactly the same material-torn clothes. My mum used to put it under the sun frequently when she was staying with me. Now, I still do it, but probably once a year, and forced to change its clothing due to hygiene issue. It is soooo soft when I touch it and hold it.Sometimes I even woke up and searched high and low for my baby pillow if it's not in my arms.

This is my baby pillow:

Only those with one will understand. Others, please keep your comment to yourself and I do not want to listen to a single word. Hehe....

Depression in 2015

I never thought that I will have depression since I am quite a happy go lucky kind of person. But since yesterday morning, I was feeling so down.Probably people around me are changing while I still stay at the same place+made shitty decision in love by saying something which I didnt mean it and hurt the one I love and caused he is swaying away from me. Probably my self esteem is really too low until I have lost my confidence and made such silly move.

Now I understand why depressed people shout and cry out of sudden. I saw an article which a fren sent to me this morning. People with depression will act happier or more excited in front of family and friends, just to show them he/she is OK. That exactly hit it in my case. But when I am alone, i just feel like crying out loud. I've been asking myself why and how I can be one like this. I started to hate myself, started to feel like to be away from everyone. 

I don't want to continue to feel this way.So I went to check on a gym which nearby my house,and decided to join them soon. At least by doing something healthy which can let me release my stress is way much better than sitting alone at home. Cross fingers I will be a happy girl again very soon.

Touching Story

Read a touching story in 2015 which made my tears rolled down. Maybe my lacrimal is just too active.
Here's the story:-


Boy: Hi baby!! How are you? I'm so happy today!!
Girl: Wait, I'll text you later, I'm still busy with my thesis.
Boy: Can you do it later? Letter talk first.. I miss you so much baby.
Girl: I have to finish this on time, you know that.
Boy: Please baby, just this once? You can finish that tomorrow.
Girl: What???? Can't you understand this is my project!? Can't you give me time for myself?? COULD YOU PLEASE? I ALSO HAVE MY OWN LIFE..LET ME LIVE FOR MYSELF FOR ONCE! STOP TEXTING ME!
Boy: Sorry baby. I love you very very much. I'll just text you later.
Boy: Hi baby, I can't stay long not texting you. I really wanted to talk to you.. I want us to be happy again.
Boy: Hi baby, still you are not responding to my texts. How's your thesis?
Boy: Baby... Please response,I'm worried already..
Boy: Baby it's already 10pm.. It's been 2 hours but you are still not replying to my text. I miss you already...i love you so much!
Boy: Uhm baby.. I love you so much.. I'm just here for you always.. The time is near that we'll always be together..
Girl: Didn't I tell you I'll text you after I'm done with my thesis?! Can't you understand that?!?! Why is it so hard for you to get that I'm BUSY?? It's like there's no tomorrow..you are overreacting..WILL YOU JUST SLEEP??
Boy: Sorry baby.. Ok.Goodnight baby..I love you..Take care of yourself always..I'll always here to guide you..I'm just here..I'll never leave you. ......the NEXT DAY....
Girl: Baby, wake up..Sorry about what I've said last night..i was just really busy..eat your breakfast baby, I'll be going to school now..
Girl: Wake up baby, you still have classes to attend..text me when you're awake..
Girl: Hey, why until now you're not texting? It's already our lunch break..why didn't you attend your classes? Don't you have phone credits? Please text me..
Boy: He left us already..my son left me already..your boyfriend left you..he alreadyleft those who are dear to him..Did he tells you he's sick? This was the 3rd year his doctor gave him...we thought it wasn't true..Because no one can predict how long a person can
live in this world..but to our surprised, his heart didn't make it too..We tried towake him up this morning but he never responded... There was a message for you in
his phone but he wasn't able to send it.. ""Take care of yourself always, I'm happy where I am going..please, don't cry..I'm sorry I didn't tell you about my condition..i don't want
to bother you because I know how busy you are with your thesis..i don't wanna add up to your worries..I'm not sure if I'm lucky enough to still have a chance to wake up tomorrow but I'm always praying that He'll give me a chance to see you and be with you
everyday of my life..I love you so much...I regret that we didn't have a
chance to talk longer today..but I understand you..you might fail on your thesis if you won't be able to finish it..I'm really really sorry...and I love you very very much..Please, promise me you'll be strong..I'm by your side now..I'll always be here..

Biodata (Part 2) of 2015

I’ve read again my old blog yesterday and found out that I actually wrote a funny bio-data before in 2008.

***********Have You Ever*****************

* Broken a bone: Ouchh! Luckily Never.

* Been in a police car: Noooo!!

* Been on a plane: Yup. Not many times though.

* Came close to dying: Yup. 2 times. When I fell down from bicycle on a main road in form 4, and when I met accident in a T-junction.

* Been in a hot tub: Actually only once in a spa in Bali, as I dare not to use hotel’s tub.

* Fallen asleep in school: Never. I was an extremely good student. Kakakaka….

* Given anyone a bath: Haha…yes. My cousin sisters when they were real  small.
* Bungeed: No
* Made yourself throw-up: I don’t really know how. Digging throat is just too….yuck!
* Gone skinny dipping?: I dare not to do that yet.
* Been in the opposite gender's washroom: Yup. When the female toilet was closed in petrol kiosks.
* Eaten a dog biscuit: Haha…I am not interested at all.
* Put your tongue on a frozen pole:  No.Does it taste good? Someone who tried please let me know.
* Played truth or dare: Yup. A few times.
* Been in a physical fight: No. If I ever do, maybe it will be a court case.
* Been in a sauna: Sauna bed yes, but not sauna room when it's functioning.
* Kissed your friend: Yes. On cheeks.
* Flashed someone: No. Haha…flash….like psycho do?
* Cried in school: Yes. Once. And caused my ex-classmate almost forced to stop schooling.

* Ever been cheated on?: Yes. And it really hurts. L

* Get sick: Got sick very frequent in the past half a year. In fact still coughing now.
* Best feeling in the world: Satisfaction, and being loved.

***********What is-****************

5 things I was doing in the past 5 years:

-        - Ended a 13years relationship.

-        - Bought a landed property.

-       -  Stopped Facebooking and blogging for a few years.

-      -   Started baking of cakes and cookies.

-     -   Promoted to be Head of department.

Would you -

* Eat a live hamster for RM1,000,000: How to eat? Put in the mouth and let it struggle inside my mouth and then I just chew?Eeewwww! Probably British pound 1mil I will do that. Kakakaka.....

*Go to a Simple Plan concert if you had a free ticket? Need to depends on whose concert.
* Kill someone you didn't know for 15 billion dollars: If I have the license to kill, I will.

* If you were stuck on an island, what people would you want with? MacGyver. Definitely not Chuck Noland as I do not want Wilson the Volleyball to become my mate too.

--------------------------Who---------------------------------------------

Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?  Contact lenses.

Do you like yourself? Sometimes yes, sometimes no.

----------------------RANDOM--------------------------------

* Hated someone in your family? Used to have. But the hate faded away as time goes by.

* What car do you wish to have? Too many to list down here. Ok! Everyone is greedy. Not only me. :p

* Good singer? Not really.

* Are you oldest?: Yes.

----------------------------Today did you------------------------------

1. Sing: Yes. In the car on my way to work. I always sing when I am alone.

WHAT IS: 
The kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use: Pantene hair fall control shampoo and Dove hair fall control conditioner,

DO YOU/ARE YOU: 
* Do you get along with your family: Get along very well.
* Obsessive: Not really.
* Compulsive: No. I don’t do things excessively.
* Anorexic: I think this is a bit impossible to happen to me. I love to eat just too much.

If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be: I try to love who I am and not going to change anything. If you don’t like me, you get lost.

Freaking Hot Weather!!

Global warming must have conquered Malaysia. The weather these few days were freaking hot. I don't feel like going out at all. Not even for lunch. Calling for food delivery is the best solution. But how many days I can order that? sob sob.....